Friday, August 19, 2011

A necessary change "for me!"

God grant me the serenity to accept the people I cannot change, the courage to change the one I can-and the wisdom to know it's me.~Author Unknown
What a GREAT quote....  I feel like I've been on a roller coaster ride of emotions for the last few days, weeks, months... 
I have an INCREDIBLE amount of things to be GRATEFUL for and I can honestly say that I have been having a hard time doing it...  I feel like I've been sorta in a funk, definitely haven't been myself lately...  and I don't like it...  last week I finally made a hard decision, and I think I started feeling better...  I have let my thoughts, and feeling get the better of me and they have definitly skewed my feelings of thankfulness...  I NEEDED to make a change, for own sanity, if nothing else....
So I have decided that I will go back to being me, to being the person who I used to be, the person who I used to like....  the person who did things without any worries, without thinking of the "consequences" of my actions....  the person who does things without wondering first what people will say or what people will think...  the person who "willingly" did things for people...  you know surprise visits, and surprise dinners... :)  and I will also go back to being the person who is WAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYY better off staying out of other people's drama....  I've always been really good at that, drama stresses me out, makes me feel uncomfortable, and most/almost always doesn't even concern me....  But I feel like lately it's almost consumed me....  I don't seek it, but for some reason it "seeked" me...  I don't like the way it made me feel, I don't like the way it/I made other people feel, and I don't really like the things that I learned about people...  OH WELL, we're all human, we all falter, and I know that, but I learned a VALUABLE lesson, and that is, that we must always "protect, and hold true, to the absent," I've always stood behind "treating my neighbor the way I want to be treated,"  and I have certainly failed at that lately...  I think that is why that new variation of one of my favorite quotes, REALLY struck/opened up my mind just a little...  So there they are...  changes that I need to make to really life that is true to the person I want to strive to be, I hope and pray that God will give me the will, the strength and the direction to keep leading/living this way!!!  :) 

1 comment:

DeBran said...

And THAT He will ;) xoxo