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Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Whinny Wednesday!!!

.....Let me go ahead and apologize for myself right now.... ;) It's not everyday that I whinne, but I have noticed that lately they're A LOT more closer together than I generally like them.... :/ I'm pretty sure it's the "negativity" that I seem to be running into lately... lol! I like to think that I'm generally a happy person, and I KNOW that I try to live in a "cup is always half full" kind of way.... However, that has proven to be getting harder and harder....

Why is it that people ALWAYS have to find something to complain about?? (and yes! I realize I'm doing that now!) ;) it seems that it doesn't really matter what it is, people have to bitch and complain about it, sometimes I feel like they just want someone to feel sorry for them? but why?? why can't we all just be happy that we're alive and well, that we still have jobs, and that we're able to do extra-curricular activities at our leisure? and why can't we do all of this without making sure that no one else has more, or is having more fun than us... that would just be more reason to feel sorry for ourselves.... why can't we be happy with what he have? like the roof over our heads and food on the table?? there are people out there that don't even have that.... and why is it that when we see someone we haven't seen in forever, they must always tell us EVERYWAY that their life is going wrong?? why don't we make more of an effort of mentioning ALL of the ways in which our lives are going GREAT?? wouldn't THAT make for more pleasant conversation?? ummmm.... Life happens to everyone, and it's how we deal with it, that is important....

I asked someone to help me in answering that question the other day.... all they could say was that I was "different", whatever that means?? Now don't get me wrong I know LOTS of very positive people, in that aspect I'm lucky, God has blessed me with AMAZING friends and family, and I know that they're all equally grateful for all that they've worked hard to achieve, and have, but man it's those few negative one's, the one's who think something is "owed" to them, and it's always the same one's.... that can bring bring anyone's mood to the ground in a heartbeat.... hahaha!! all day today I wondered why that was, why do people like beng unhappy?? It's almost like some of them even live for it..... REALLY?? being negative and unhappy is exhausting!!! After much thought on this subject I came to no conclusion! ;) So I decided that I would blog about it, and get it all out.... maybe that would help me understand the way others think??

I'm sure my thinking, and frustration with negativity has a lot to do with me going thru my own roller coaster of emotions.... I'm pretty sure the 30's haven't been my "favorite" years... I now worry about things like getting married, and finding the one, and finally figuring out what I want to do when I grow up! Oh wait there's that kid thing too.... ugh... I'm not gonna lie when I say that Sunday's dance recital for all the girls was GREAT.... I LOVED it, but at the same time it made me sad.... sad that I didn't have a little one out there dancing with the rest of them, sad that I may never have a little girl, and yet hopeful but at the same time sad that if I am eventually blessed with one, (that's me being positive, it can still happen, I'm NOT that old!) ;) she wont be the same age as the other girls, I was so proud of all of the little one's they did an awesome job though.... then I felt guilty, how could this day suddenly be about me?? this ws the girls' day... and what a day it was!!! They were AWesome!! :) things that generally didn't affect me in my 20's, are now starting to "worry" me, but enough about that.... It's something I think about, but it's not ALL I think about, that is until people bring it to my attention.... hahaha!!! a few years ago, I would of brushed it off, don't get me wrong, I still "brush" it off now, but then I think about it, and then I let it get to me.... and well we all know what happens after that!! :)
So there!! that's my whinning session for today! I feel better, hahaha!!! but i don't think i'll ever understand why some people thrive for negativity..... ughhhhh.... one of these days when I get older someone will enlighten me I'm sure of it!!! ;)

2 comments:

PB∧Janelle-e said...

Thank you for the comment :) I hope my post didnt make you think I am ungrateful? I also can relate on so many levels with this and I think its totally normal not selfish for you to want to have your own family and be where your friends are at. (family and such) Like you said God only gives us what we can handle, I want to add he also has a plan for us. It may not be on our timetable but he knows your hearts desires! Hang in there :)

maria said...

hahaha!!! no, I didn't think that of you at all!! I wrote mine, then I read yours.... :) and it just put into perspective that we all have off days... it's what makes us human!!! :) and you're right... I know he has a plan, sometimes I just get antsy waiting for it!! ;) it's weird, the people who seem to throw me "over" into the thinking world aren't even people who I would condider friends.... :) thank you for your comment too!! :)