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Tuesday, May 26, 2009

and suddenly it all makes sense!!!

...... So for the last few months I've been going around in circles wondering where I went "wrong". I kinda felt like I've been in sort of like a funk, almost like I wasn't myself. I've been trying to figure out when and where the transformation happened, actually I know exactly when it happened, one of my close friends told me that I was a horrible friend, somehow it stuck and I actually believed it for a little while...... It's funny I had actually been thinking and talking to God about it, and suddenly it hit me the other day while I was sitting around another friends living room, I'm not that bad of a person, for years I've made it a point to make EVERYONE else feel special, while never expecting anything in return, and I still don't.... That's just the person that I am. But I think after the "horrible" friend comment was made I decided that I was gonna try being a 'horrible friend" and well let's just say that I didn't like where it put me in my life, it made me a person that I am not, so the other day I decided that I'm just going to go back to being the person that I used to be, while not feeling badly about having to say no here and there.... I've realized that it's ok to miss an event here and there, if nothing else to keep my sanity.... sometimes I feel like I'm going in 25 different directions, and that's just in one day.... :)I've also come to the conclusion that everyone is entitled to their own opinion of me, and that is perfectly ok. It's taken years and a variety of people in my life to realize that those people that really care about us will ALWAYS be just a phone call away, whether it's been an hour or a year since we've last talked to them, AND these are the one's that love us for who we are.... :-D So here's to me being me, I made a "horrible" friend anyway!!! hahaha ;)

7 comments:

Carlie said...

I wish all my friends were as "horrible" as you ;) xoxo

Melissa Marie said...

Whoever had the audacity to call you a "horrible friend" has lost their cotton pickin' marbles. In my observation and experience, I seem to notice that people like that either:
a)Take advantage of their "nice", "loyal", "self-sacrificing" and "giving" friends and end up not only taking these wonderful qualities for granted, but now come to expect you to always be at their beck and call. When you fail to do so (once) you've either "changed" or are "horrible".
b)are so narcissistic that they can't see past the fact that the world doesn't revolve around them and they sincerely think your friendship is a means to help, cater and better their life without a single thought of reciprocating those acts upon you.
c)All of the above.
Now I don't know the situation or the person... but I do know one thing... I've known you for a long time...and the one thing that I know you are NOT is a horrible friend. Conclusion: Don't waste your time, thoughts, energy or emotions on someone who accuses you of things that are obviously untrue. Life is too short for people like that...and there are far too many of us in your life that appreciate you for who you are to have room for someone that doesn't. Can I get an amen? ;)

maria said...

hahaha!!! you guys are funny!!! And Melissa you're completely right, but sometimes there comes a person who can push us right off the wagon with one comment!!! I wrote the blog mostly because I was annoyed that I actually let the comment consume me for so long!!! and yes I know there are many people who appreciate me for who I am, just as I appreciate them for who they are!!! ;)

jessica said...

amen to melissa's comment! haha! i ditto it. ;)

DeBran said...

I like you

B is for Boring said...

your not horrible... I think your great...

Isaac Marzioli - Freelance Illustrator said...

I didn't say you were a horrible friend...I said you were a horrible fantasy baseball player...and a horrible picker of baseball teams to be fans of...um...and horribly eating watermelon (I read that blog first)...as a friend you're GU...